Lost  (Finalé)

I could swear that I heard my mum’s voice in my unconscious state, but my eyes felt so heavy and my body felt numb. I was unable to open my eyes as I just laid there without moving a muscle.

“Toke pls open your eyes oh… hay God! awọn ọta mi ti ṣe aṣeyọri (my enemies have succeeded) how can I lose my two children in one day?” My mum lamented
“Don’t worry madam she’ll be fine” a female voice said

Meanwhile; the search for my brother had commenced back at home. All efforts made to find him proved futile, my brother was nowhere to be found.

Finally, the drug administered on me wore off completely and I was able to open my eyes. I saw my mum talking to a lady in white at the door, I could conclude by her looks that she was the doctor.
“Where’s Ade?” I said, opening my eyes slowly
“Oh Jesus thank you! Toke you are alive” my mum said, I noticed the eye bags beneath her eyes. It was obvious she hadn’t slept in days, I became worried.
“They’re still looking for your brother, I’m sure they’ll find him” my mum said with a convincing smile
The lady in white walked up to me and did the necessary checkup and concluded that I was fit to go back home giving my mum strict instructions that I had enough rest and shouldn’t be put in any stressful condition.

Weeks passed still no sign of Ade, I missed him so much and mum did too. Life was never the same and in some way, I blamed myself for everything that happened, I should have warned Ade about the looming danger but I didn’t. I prayed day and night that my brother would one day come back home but it seemed the heavens were shut on me.

“Ade my guy! You have done well!” Chief said
“Thank you very much Chief, I hope to do more business with you in future” Ade said with a wicked smile across his face

My nightmares had resumed in full force again and I saw Ade dressed in black and in the midst of dangerously armed men. What shocked me more was Ade seemed like their leader because they were paying homage to him. I woke up scared and confused and I told mum about it, as usual she took it up the best way she knew how to…Prayers.

“Femi, I need to go back home. My mum and sister would be worried, I’m even sure they think I’m dead” Ade said
“Guy, shey you hear wetin baba tell us? If you no hear make I rephrase am for you. Baba say, if you wan succeed for this drug business wey we do, we have to cut of our family members because the day we set our eyes on any of them, that day our jazz would fade and we’ll die” Femi said with a sigh
“I remember all that baba said that night. I just wish things were different” Ade said as he stood up with Femi to prepare for their next mission.
Side Note; You have to read my last post here to understand this post ❤

P.S: I’m not a Yoruba girl, my yoruba friend and Google came to my rescue.

Thank you all for the love you showed me in my previous posts and thanks for reading.


MacRoc (Exclusive interview)

Happy New year guys!! Sorry for the long wait, as promised in my last post here I told y’all that I’ll be starting an interview series soon 💃 and I kept to my promise.

I had a 47mins voice note exchange with Efe MacRoc Idu and trust me it was hilarious and very entertaining, unfortunately I can’t post the voice notes on here but I’m sure you’ll have a swell time reading his interview. Do enjoy ❤

Let’s meet you. Tell us about yourself and who you represent.

My name is Efeoghene Macdonald Idu, also known as MacRoc. I’m from a family of four  (my parents and sister inclusive). I’m a computer scientist graduate from the prestigious Benson Idahosa University. I am an A.U ambassador, I discover talents, nurture talents and I’m also a cover person (this is me trying to be humble *laughs*)

Along the line after your studies, what changed? Why did you leave computer science for Music?

Well… this is quite a tricky question. I didn’t leave computer science, I’m still a computer scientist because I still use it in my line of work. I am a network administrator professionally. I’ll say that I am practicing music producer not practicing computer science professionally.

What other producers, music artists do you see as your primary inspiration?

In my style of music, let’s just leave it to Nigerians only one of the people I greatly admire is Cobhams Asuquo. I study him closely and tend to understand his next move and also apply such in my line of work.

Another person is Don Jazzy, his business ethics is out of this world. These two actually do it for me.

That’s interesting! How do you value studio time?

I value studio time the same way I value my life. It is extremely valuable to me because it has changed lives, so I think it deserves a whole lot of respect. I do not joke with my studio time.

Tell me about the most interesting project you have worked on this year and what you learnt from it.

(He said something really funny here, I laughed my ribs out). Most of my interesting projects would be my covers, they inspire me. But one of my best was the “Uncle Suru” it is amazing! 

And one thing i learnt from it is to be simple, results would come gradually.

Is there an artist you’ve always wanted to work with but never had the opportunity? If yes, give us details. 

Yes, there are actually a couple of artists I would have and would love to work with, one of them is Tiwa Savage

because of the kind of global music I do, she’s one that would actually do justice to something I could come on with. She’s on my top list.

That’s lovely! I hope your dream comes to actualization. So tell me, about some of the challenges you’ve faced over the years.

I’m actually independent so there’s alot of challenges for independent music producers especially when it comes to finances. And another challenge is in the area of sponsorship, since I started I’ve never had a sponsor it has just been me and God all the way. 

What do you like to do for fun?

I watch movies alot, I’m a football manager. For fun basically, I hang out with friends and I love road trips alot.

(I was so dramatic here 😂) Are you in a relationship? If yes, how do you balance your work life and relationship?

I have a lot of relationships I am involved in with family and friends and I try my best to balance it because most times I have to focus on my work so that they can be proud of me. But in terms of a mutual relationship with the opposite sex I am SINGLE, my major focus now is on my work, I want to have a grip on my career for now.

What are we expecting from MacRoc in 2018 and years to come?

In 2018, there’ll be more collaborations, International collaborations precisely, more covers and visuals. I also want to branch into a new venture, a new side of me would be unveiled in 2018.

I know there are alot of people who look up to you. So what advice do you have for these ones?

For the aspiring music producers, pay attention to social media, be very consistent in your work, don’t give up, be sensitive when you get an opportunity. 

Be a boss of your craft, look for a particular music and own it. Be a king in your own lane.

Thank you so much for granting this interview. We hope to see you at the top! 

You can follow him on Instagram @efe_macroc Twitter @efe_macroc and Facebook MacRoc Productions

Watch this space for more exclusive interviews ❤

Scary Goals

Hello dearies ☺

First of all, I want to apologise for my absence, work took over and I barely have time for myself or my blog and sometimes too you could blame it on laziness 🙈.

What did i miss? 😄

I know you’ll be wondering why I came up with this topic, reason is because I have been doing alot of thinking these past few weeks and months. The year is gradually coming to an end and if you rush back to look at that little notebook where you penned down your goals, I can bet only 50 or 60 percent of your goals were achieved. Should you be sad? Should you be worried? Yes, it’s normal to feel that way, but should that deter you? No. Take those unaccomplished goals with you to the next year, those goals may not have been accomplished due to certain factors which was definitely not your fault. Try to sit down and plan your new year with a positive mind.

I’ll use my self as an example, while serving I wanted to get a good job at the end of service immediately. But you know, life had other plans coupled with our beautiful economy, I got done in November… still no job, the year was already coming to an end, depression seeped in because man was broke. But that didn’t stop me, the following year by February I got my present job, though not what I expected but it took me out of my location and has shapened me up greatly.

One major key is “STOP COMPARING OTHERS LIFESTYLE TO YOURS” we are all on different levels and we have our different struggles. Truth is, no one can accomplish their goals totally, because the more you accomplish, the more you set extra goals. Do not rush in life, like someone said “Slow and steady wins the race”

Learn to put God first in whatever goals you set. There was something I used to do while setting my goals, I usually pray first after writing down my goals and after that, I find myself striking out certain goals because, I know within myself that those goals cannot be achieved now or probably God has other plans. So, commit whatever you do in God’s hands.

Your goals are never too big or scary to accomplish, work towards accomplishing it with the same vigor you used to write them down. 😉

By recording your dreams and goals on paper, you set in motion the process of becoming the person you most want to be. Put your future in good hands. You can

Mark Victor Hansen

Hope a sister didn’t bore you? So I’ll really love to get a feedback from you… have you been able to accomplish your goals for this year? Share some tips about how you did it, so the rest of us could learn a thing or two.

A big thank you to those who have been loyal to Toks David, y’all are the real MVP. ❤ God bless you.

P.S: I’ll be starting an interview series soon. 💃

The Act of Forgiveness

Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that- Martin Luther King, Jr.

Forgiveness an eleven letter word, easy to say, hard to do. 

“How do I forgive a man who calls himself my dad but walked out on my mum and left her to cater for us because he has found paradise and solitude in the thighs of another woman?”

“How do I forgive that guy who I gave my all too and even my virginity but he still left me and got married to someone else?”

“How do I forgive that friend who betrayed me?”

“How do I forgive that uncle who raped me at a tender age? And made me a night worker because I couldn’t commit to any man?”

How? How? 
These are some questions you’ll be asked when you bring up the topic of forgiveness. I have heard a lot of stories and experienced it myself, I know how we all react to the topic of forgiveness. Especially when you’re a Christian and the pastor brings up this topic and says “Even Jesus said on the cross, father forgive them for they know not what they’re doing” and you sit there silently pondering on that and asking yourself “Was it that easy?” Like Cece Winans said in one of her songs “It wasn’t easy but it was worth it”.

To be a Christian means to forgive the inexcusable because God has forgiven the inexcusable in you.- C.S. Lewis

Forgiveness is not easy but it’s necessary we learn as humans to forgive. Some days back, I was having a heated discussion with someone and the next thing this person said was “You had no idea how much hatred I had for you” it sounded very funny and shocking to me because at a point, we stopped talking because I needed to move on, but I knew what I did wasn’t the right thing so I came back to apologize not knowing that the person still carry me for mind, life can be really twisted sometimes. Forgiving a whole lot of people has really helped me a lot, it has made my skin glow, made me more happy, made me sleep without no worries. And you may be asking yourself why should I forgive? I’ll give you reasons why you should forgive
1) Life is too Short

You never know when our maker could call us home. You never know the last goodbyes or when next you’ll have that opportunity, do not postpone. DO IT NOW!
2) To set your soul free

Unforgiveness chokes one’s soul, you know there’s something you ain’t doing right, it’s always there as a reminder. Let go of the hate and forgive, you’ll be content and happy within yourself that you have done he right thing. SET YOUR SOUL FREE!
3) It is a commandment

From the beginning of time, forgiveness has always been a major factor. We were commanded by God to forgive our enemies no matter what they did to us (MATTHEW 6:14-15, MARK 11:25). If we want forgiveness from God, we should also forgive whoever has offended us.
These are the few reasons why you should forgive, they are so many more but these are the major ones for me. We all need forgiveness at a certain point in our life too….so let’s do the right thing.

It’s one of the greatest gifts you can give yourself, to forgive. Forgive everybody- Maya Angelou


I’ll like to hear from you my dear readers, what does forgiveness mean to you? What was the major reason why you forgave a lot of people? Pls do not read without leaving a comment because I also want to learn a few things too. Thanks for reading and God bless.

2017…..Yay or Nay?

Hello there…..!!

Happy new year once again, and this is going to be my first post for the year. 10 days gone already, just like that! Wawuuuu…how has it been for you? Truthfully, I was confused at the beginning of this year, I didn’t set any goal but thanks to my Pastor, a flyer was shared in church and at the back of it there was some guidelines on how to set your goals (wasn’t really a guideline per say but it guided me)

2017 so far for me has been amazing! And I pray it continues that way, I was finally able to set my goals (I did it in church, shh!!) and God has been my strength, I’ll definitely share them with you guys but that would be at the end of the year.

For the first time, I actually went for a bloggers hangout with Tonye Igbani and The black writer, it was so much fun!! You can check here and here for the whole gist! I learnt a whole lot from them and I am definitely going to put what I learnt into use. Here are some of the pictures we took:

I’ll be starting a series soon!! (Wait for it!) , but I have got big plans for my blog and I hope they all come to pass. I’ll rate my 2017 so far …6/10

Please I’ll love to hear from you, how has your 2017 been for you? (I know we’re still in the first month) Is it a yay or Nay?

A big thank you to all my readers! I won’t have come this far if not for your loyalty, till next time xx

2016 (RECAP)

Phewwwwwwww……….*breathes out* 2016!!!!!! Is it okay to say “HOW THE MIGHTY HAS FALLEN?” This year was a mixture of joy, pain, stress, mixed feelings etc but I came out strong. One of the best things that happened to me this year was getting my domain name changed (although I’m thinking of changing it back to the previous one, thanks to the dollar rate), and again I concluded my service this year (5th of October precisely).I had a lot of plans for my blog, I achieved just one out of the many things I planned because writers block, but I know 2017 would be better!! 💃🏻 I met a whole lot of people through this blogsphere, some of them were my source of inspiration and strength. A lot of them would message me to find the out why my blog had no new post, my friend Jay Jay even said I should remove the cobwebs 😂😂. 

I promise that next year…I’ll make sure I post if not daily but weekly, so help me God 🙏🏻

2016 taught me a whole lot, at least 5 basic things:

1) There are certain people you’ll meet as you go on in life, keep them close because they’ll play a big role in your success story. (Thanks to my NYSC friends) 

2) Friends come and go but the true ones would always stay even if you try to push them away.

3) Put God first in all you do, always pray before you make any decision (I made a lot of mistakes this year because, I stopped praying and acted according to my intuition)

4) Do not place your happiness on anyone, you deserve to be happy!! (On becoming Toke Makinwa inspired)

5) Enough love makes your skin glow and your highlight pop 🔥❤️ (Thank you A.O.A)
So….that’s it, 2016 taught me a whole lot but these 5 basic things remain dear to my heart. 

And a big thank you goes to my friend Peter, he’s the only one that leaves a comment on all my post, I appreciate you dear. And also to Funke Olotu for her help in setting up my domain name, thanks darling.

How was your 2016?? Pls drop a comment….

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! See you all in 2017. I love you all and God bless you 💋


Sister Ngozi walked in majestically unaware of the hateful eyes staring at her, all wishing they could be as beautiful, elegant and graceful as she was….she had such a good voice that could melt the heart of whoever cared to listen to her, that explains why she was given the solo lead for every song we sang.Her passion for serving God was seen in her dedication, still unmarried she looked unperturbed. I made her my mentor, since I was still growing in the singing ministry, she was always willing to help and would tap me on my shoulders when I was trying to jump into the off-key zone. But one thing I noticed about her was that she was very secretive, atimes I felt our friendship meant nothing to her, she practically knew everything about me but I barely knew where she was living or who her relatives were…..she was always the last to leave rehearsals, so I barely had time to discuss with her…since I had to rush home because I lived quite far.

She turned down so many suitors, even from the choir…there was a rumor going about one time that even our Choir master, Brother Kelvin asked her to marry him but she refused. Like seriously who in their right state of mind would want to turn down his proposal? He was handsome, god fearing and above all could sing! A lot of females wanted him for themselves but he only had eyes for Sister Ngozi, this made her get a lot of haters and admirers all the same, but she barely noticed.

I got tired of her not seeing me worthy enough to give me details about her personal life, so I decided to meddle in even without invitation or permission. One fateful day, I stayed behind while everyone left and I hid behind the church bookshop and waited for sister Ngozi to come out, she eventually came out after a long time. I slowly followed her, thankfully her destination was close by so I didn’t have to trek for a long time, she finally stopped at a gate and knocked….a little boy about the age of 6 came to open the gate and with a cheerful face he screamed “Mummy has come back! What did you buy for me and Ebere?” He said jumping up and down 

She laughed and said “Let’s go in first sweetheart, and I’ll give you what I bought. Hope grandma took good care of you and my little princess?” She said closing the gate behind her.

I stood far afar off, watching this drama unfolded before me….I needed more answers, so I walked slowly to the gate and knocked…..

All I saw was a person confused, full of secrets, regrets and hatred right in front of me as the gate opened.  
PS: This is a fictional story ❤️